The Blog of Aimenhoodle

The difference between me and white trash... is I know better!

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I made Jagger and Richards look like droopy-eyed armless children… I’m a total freakin’ rockstar from Mars!

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kelsomcgee-deactivated20140317 asked: YES! AND YOU CAN CHANGE THE COLOR OF THE BACKGROUND!
(go to appearance under customize if you want)
i love this theme

Well, yay!

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Trying to make my pants really dirty like the kids in the Tide commercials… so my mom could get the stains out. All those tv moms got great satisfaction out of removing grass stains from their kids’ knees…

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Big Pimpin’

Trying to get the balcony off my bedroom pimped out. So far I’ve got two Moroccan-looking votive holders from World Market and a basket of petunias. Ideas, please! I am finding patio furniture that looks cool is usually not very sturdy. Rickety stuff will blow away in this Wyoming wind! Somebody ssaaaa-aaa-aaayaaave me! Wow, that was really 80’s. 

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I Wanna Be Sedated…

Being a nurse, I should have a much better attitude toward the medical profession. Over the last 14 years since I have graduated from nursing school, I have one thing to say to patients with non-life-threatening conditions: Run for your lives!

There is no way to argue that the pharmaceutical industry is about nothing more than money… and they make a lot of it. Who do you think pays for the hip, young pharmaceutical reps that waltz into a physician’s office while you have been waiting an hour for an appointment that was triple-booked to insure the office does not lose money? You do. It is not a mistake that these reps are young, fit and attractive. They are meant to aesthetically lure in physicians to encourage them to prescribe drugs for specific pharmaceutical companies. Some offices have stopped allowing this to happen, but others continue the practice, as the reps give the offices valuable samples of medications that the providers use for needy patients.

We all know that there have been laws passed to avoid relationships between doctors and pharmaceutical companies that encourage a physician to prescribe a drug based on “gifts” given to his practice or to himself. There are sneaky ways around this and the bottom line is the doctor can prescribe anything he wants, as he has earned this privilege by attending medical school.

On several occasions I have been prescribed medication that, over time, my body has developed a dependence to. I am not talking about dangerous narcotic pain medications. I have taken low doses of medication pushed on me for suspected seizures and anxiety. On several occasions I have either been a. fired from my doctor for missing appointments b. told to find another doctor because the current provider could not treat my diagnosis or c. had to change physicians due to my primary provider moving on to an administrative position and was no longer seeing patients in his practice. When these situations occur, the patient is left on medications that must be tapered from; not taken away abruptly. I have been left in a panic, knowing not all physicians prescribe the same medication and have different philosophies of what is appropriate to prescribe for certain conditions.

Have a well-documented diagnosis and history of anxiety and PTSD, I have recently found myself in a predicament. I have no health insurance. The clinic I go to currently is free of charge. They are wonderful, except they cannot treat patients for what they consider “mental illness.” Although I would certainly not consider myself “mentally ill”, I do think that the average general practitioner should be willing to treat patients without underlying serious depression or thought disorders for chronic anxiety and PTSD symptoms. However, I do feel that these patients should only use medications in conjunction with psychotherapy.

Yes, everyone knows that getting regular exercise, avoidance of alcohol and illicit drugs as well as general healthy lifestyle can help symptoms of anxiety. Unless a person has experienced extreme psychological trauma, it is impossible to understand the long term effects of this on one’s everyday life. Noises, gestures, the tone of a person’s voice, smells, words; anything can trigger unpleasant flashbacks and panic attacks. When a provider gives a patient a pill that alleviates the personal hell that can rage in their patient’s mind, it is all too easy to escape the unpleasant symptoms with medications.

Here is the catch: medications have side effects and some can cause dependence. Any psychotropic medication is messing with your brain and the way it functions. On many occasions I have found myself changing providers for some reason or another and was faced with weaning myself off a drug that has helped me immensely. Some people may call that medication a crutch. Maybe it is. Unless a person has experienced daily panic attacks causing them to feel as if they could die at any moment and impending doom is about to set in, they need not vocalize their opinions. 

At the moment, I am in this quandary. I began taking Buspar several years ago at the suggestion of my therapist. I was only able to tolerate a low dose. In my town, there is a scam going on that requires that only clinicians at a single clinic will treat any psychological issues people may have. That isn’t to say that doctors don’t occasionally give their patients anxiety medications; I’m sure they do. This clinic has a waiting list of almost 6 months. I have been forced to ween myself off the Buspar with no direction. My old practitioner is not seeing me. I am on a waiting list to see a new provider. I am in limbo and no one will help me ween off this medication.

Since my self-weening, I have experienced neurologic symptoms such as tingling in my scalp, my eyes are twitching back and forth, leaving the muscles sore and tired. My left lower eyelid is twitching. I have headaches and feel extremely anxious. Duh. I just quit taking medication for panic attacks.

As a nurse, I am trained to tell people to stay on their medication and to only go off it under a physician’s care. As a human being, I am grossly disgusted by the entire medical profession. Doctors go to school to learn what pharmaceuticals to give people. Not all doctors; but most of them. These drugs have side effects and can be habit-forming, thus creating a dependence on this multi-billion dollar industry. People end up taking medication to deal with the side effects of the medication they are taking, creating the need for popping even more pills. I have taken care of elderly people at the hospital who were on twenty or more pills. Many of them could have been replaced with natural dietary supplements. 

Not once has meditation, yoga or biofeedback been recommended for the issues I have with anxiety. Not once has yogurt been recommended for the GI symptoms I have suffered. Most physicians are not educated about natural remedies or dietary remedies that actually are proven to work. 

Every year the pharmaceutical companies get more and more pushy. It is a recent phenomena that medications are being pushed on television. Vague symptoms for different illnesses are suggested and the consumers are told to “ask your doctor about…” whatever medication is being sold. These chemicals that were made to supposedly help people are actually hurting people. 

People have developed online support for trying to get off medication they feel has taken over their lives. Time and time again I read that these patients go to the providers that prescribed them and are treated as if they are crazy; that their symptoms are unwarranted and it is suggested that they need mental health treatment. One thing I have learned over the years is any medicine can cause any symptom. We all have the potential to be wired differently.

Physicians have a responsibility to help people to get off medication just as they have the responsibility to offer medication to treat illness. The medical industry has become a big business. Most medical offices treat us like numbers or charts instead of people. I guarantee if doctors developed a more personal relationship with their patients and took the time to listen to them and see them as human beings and not a payment on a new Mercedes or their child’s Ivy League education, they wouldn’t get sued as much and thus, wouldn’t have to spend as much money on liability insurance, in turn allowing them to see fewer patients and giving quality care.

Bad physicians are rewarded. They over book patients and are rewarded by making more money. Good physicians who are thorough and take the time needed with patients are punished by making less money. The good physicians have to pay high liability premiums that were driven up by their counterparts who are getting sued more often. 

This system is beyond broken. It will take more than a few people standing up against it to fix it. It will take barriers being broken down that divide the physicians from their patients. We are all just people. We all deserve respect. No one deserves to suffer. In the big picture each of us is so small and when we are dead and gone for 100 years, no one will care how much money we made, whether we had a vacation house in Aspen or whether we stood along the road with a sign asking for money. Everyone has the ability to be a healer or be healed… to help and be helped. Turn your back on another person and you are turning your back on yourself.